Woohoo, this past week I decided 2012 is the year I'm going for it all! It's scary but with coaching and support I can take the actions I need to take, and see what happens! Even if I don't reach every goal, I'll be able to say I actually made the effort, which I haven't done up to now on the big things. So that will be a success in itself :)
On to my decluttering. I missed one last time, recycling 24 newspapers on Dec 2. This week I've done quite a bit of recycling: four business cards, nine notes, six envelopes and inserts, 36 papers, and a ton of old, wrinkled gift wrap and bows with a bent up box. I also took out ALL the recycling this week, in stages. And I cleared out the closet (whence came the old wrapping paper) so I could put away the A/C, hang coats, and make some room. I consolidated a bunch of books into one box and then used the other box for my ex-boyfriend's stuff that I had to give back to him, including a computer monitor that was stuffed into that same closet! That's been given back too.
Results: I participated in some amazing calls this past week involving energy work and a commitment to what I really want. It was inspiring and that's why I'm going for it this year. And I've already learned that when you fall off the wagon you just gotta get back on and not beat yourself up for it. I finally found a place of acceptance for where I am right now and used that today when I slipped back into old habits.
The coaching continues to go well, though I feel like I didn't do much this week. I really did get things done - just covered all the windows with plastic the other day, for example - but I feel like getting into gear for the stuff I need to do is going to be a challenge, almost like I've been skating all week, which I haven't.
I got to see a free movie on New Year's Eve before going to my friends' for dinner and New Year celebration. And when I got home my new free movie pass had arrived, just in time for 2012!
I hit a milestone with my ex last week, when he asked me if he should stop calling and I said yes. I didn't even think before I said it. Then I cried for the rest of the day. But that didn't last long, we spoke today about some things - that was my falling off the wagon. I didn't get on my own case but I did find myself very irritated with him and for a good part of the day afterward. Still, it is nice to feel truly loved. I have to trust that I'll do the right thing for myself and for him and however we end up will be for the best. Right now I still feel the need to move on and meet new men so that I can know if we are truly best-suited for one another. And also just to have fun with being a woman!
Whatever happens, I am focusing on my dreams and making goals based on them, and letting those goals guide my actions from here on out. It's time for me to do whatever it takes to succeed! Who's with me?
Monday, January 2, 2012
Sunday, December 25, 2011
Merry Christmas To Me
Well, it's been awhile once again, but tonight I felt like posting because something is shifting in my decluttering. I went to an event in November that I've been to a couple times before, called the MMI, and I signed up for their new coaching program while there because it sounded pretty good. The last time I went I did a year-long coaching program that netted me very little in results in the areas I cared most about, and apparently they got that kind of feedback from many people, so they began a new coaching program that is pretty much all about accountability. I like that because accountability is important to me, so I thought it might work to have someone holding me to my word.
I got my coach on Nov. 28th, and after four weeks I realized today that I'm doing things differently. The process is to set my own goals based on where I want to be in a year, and break it down to daily actions to accomplish. One of my major goals was to clean my apartment. Naturally for me that starts with decluttering. My coach said to write a list of everything that needs to be done in order to have a clean house. I decided to start with my living room rather than the entire apartment. I made the list and did one or two of the smaller things each day for a couple days, then got into the more complex decluttering. Finished the living room up last weekend. There are still minor things left but the room looks good.
Here's the shift that I noticed today: I'm continuing to work on that living room list even when it's not one of the daily actions I'm accountable for. I've moved beyond my comfort zone with decluttering.
That's huge. That's been my stumbling block. So here are a few of my recent declutters:
Dec. 12: Did Quicken catch-up and recycled 130 receipts and two papers.
Dec. 13: Recycled 47 post-its, one receipt, two envelopes, one card, and one postcard.
Dec. 17: Recycled six newspapers, 11 brochures, five magazines, one program, 20 envelopes, nine papers, seven letters, three postcards, eight inserts, and two photos.
Dec. 18: Recycled two envelopes, two cards, 23 receipts, 11 papers, one brochure, two business cards, and two post-its, and also threw away a nametag holder and recycled an old set of measuring spoons (I got a new one recently).
Dec. 22: Shredded 434 papers (a whole folder!) and recycled three brochures, two envelopes, and five papers.
Dec. 24: Recycled 36 papers and six envelopes and inserts.
I also organized my computer cords last week by tying the power strip and some loose cords to the bottom of my table with some thin wire, did a lot of filing, and caught up the last six months on Quicken - which I'm keeping up with so far. I finished the last of the feng shui cures today, and am going to start on decluttering my bedroom next.
Results: The massive shift in my decluttering habits is the big one. But I also saw demand for my work increase about a day after I really cleaned up the living room clutter and got rid of some piles. I got paid some money that was owed, and I raked in a lot more last week. Got a nice Christmas bonus, a wonderful work Christmas dinner, and a work lunch last week. My cat is doing much much better, eating like a pig and gaining weight, and I met my ex-boyfriend's parents! THAT was a big experience of letting go and having it happen! I've been letting go of him a lot too, and of lots of mental clutter that has kept me from having the life I want. Finally, I got my first associate with Ignite, and we both got the customers needed to get paid, so I'm awaiting my very first check!
So things are changing. My old friend who I've been seeing in a new way called me for Christmas today, and he said he didn't know how yet, but he knew things were changing. It sounded like he meant for both of us, and maybe for us together. I don't know either, but writing this, I feel eager for what's coming into my world. Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah, and Happy Holidays whatever you celebrate!
I got my coach on Nov. 28th, and after four weeks I realized today that I'm doing things differently. The process is to set my own goals based on where I want to be in a year, and break it down to daily actions to accomplish. One of my major goals was to clean my apartment. Naturally for me that starts with decluttering. My coach said to write a list of everything that needs to be done in order to have a clean house. I decided to start with my living room rather than the entire apartment. I made the list and did one or two of the smaller things each day for a couple days, then got into the more complex decluttering. Finished the living room up last weekend. There are still minor things left but the room looks good.
Here's the shift that I noticed today: I'm continuing to work on that living room list even when it's not one of the daily actions I'm accountable for. I've moved beyond my comfort zone with decluttering.
That's huge. That's been my stumbling block. So here are a few of my recent declutters:
Dec. 12: Did Quicken catch-up and recycled 130 receipts and two papers.
Dec. 13: Recycled 47 post-its, one receipt, two envelopes, one card, and one postcard.
Dec. 17: Recycled six newspapers, 11 brochures, five magazines, one program, 20 envelopes, nine papers, seven letters, three postcards, eight inserts, and two photos.
Dec. 18: Recycled two envelopes, two cards, 23 receipts, 11 papers, one brochure, two business cards, and two post-its, and also threw away a nametag holder and recycled an old set of measuring spoons (I got a new one recently).
Dec. 22: Shredded 434 papers (a whole folder!) and recycled three brochures, two envelopes, and five papers.
Dec. 24: Recycled 36 papers and six envelopes and inserts.
I also organized my computer cords last week by tying the power strip and some loose cords to the bottom of my table with some thin wire, did a lot of filing, and caught up the last six months on Quicken - which I'm keeping up with so far. I finished the last of the feng shui cures today, and am going to start on decluttering my bedroom next.
Results: The massive shift in my decluttering habits is the big one. But I also saw demand for my work increase about a day after I really cleaned up the living room clutter and got rid of some piles. I got paid some money that was owed, and I raked in a lot more last week. Got a nice Christmas bonus, a wonderful work Christmas dinner, and a work lunch last week. My cat is doing much much better, eating like a pig and gaining weight, and I met my ex-boyfriend's parents! THAT was a big experience of letting go and having it happen! I've been letting go of him a lot too, and of lots of mental clutter that has kept me from having the life I want. Finally, I got my first associate with Ignite, and we both got the customers needed to get paid, so I'm awaiting my very first check!
So things are changing. My old friend who I've been seeing in a new way called me for Christmas today, and he said he didn't know how yet, but he knew things were changing. It sounded like he meant for both of us, and maybe for us together. I don't know either, but writing this, I feel eager for what's coming into my world. Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah, and Happy Holidays whatever you celebrate!
Sunday, November 6, 2011
Six Weeks Later...
Weeeelllll...it seems this blog may no longer be something I'm into. Granted, it was a very busy October, but to ignore it completely for so long? I'm wondering if it's time to give it up. I have continued decluttering - indeed, I did a feng shui appointment at the end of September and cleaned up a bit for that. But there's no way of recreating it and at this point the clutter continues to pile up and nothing really has changed. So I may not post anymore. In the end, The Clutter Project only works to a point. If I don't declutter my brain enough to let go of more, having a blog about it isn't useful.
So here's a few things I've let go of and some results, and we'll see how I do in the next week or so, before deciding to hang it up.
Emails: I deleted hundreds of old advertising emails that I had never read. And lots of expired links.
Feng shui: I had an appointment and ran around like crazy doing as many cures as possible as quickly as possible. Lots different from the last time, where it took weeks to get the most important one done, and the other most important one never got done.
Boyfriend: I came to the conclusion that I had to move on. Nothing was changing and I couldn't keep waiting for it to change.
Results: There have been many shifts since the feng shui. Things have gotten worse before getting better, and that's OK, that can be part of the process. But one thing that has continued to improve is cash flow. A week after making the appointment, I received $500 back from a business I'd put money into three years ago, that the government decided was a Ponzi scheme. They seized all the funds and personal assets of the founder, and evidently it was enough to pay everyone back. I had hoped for $100 and got the full $500, so I was pretty happy! I'd pretty much forgotten about it, which made it even better.
Anyway, I had a follow-up call and Deborah, the feng shui lady, said it all sounded really good to her, so that is encouraging. I was feeling like nothing was changing, and she said to me, "If feng shui worked in six weeks we'd all be millionaires." I had to laugh at that one, because I think I must have been expecting instant change! One thing that I know will reap big benefits is the breakup.
I am going through a lot of scary feelings about breaking up, but it's good because this is the brain clutter that kept me hanging on so long despite knowing it was time to let it go. So now hopefully I will face these fears and deal with them, so they won't get in my way again. I have done so much grieving over the end already, and yet there's still more. So I'm going with the residual wallowing this weekend, doing nothing much, and probably having pizza later.
I'm also seeing some other things about myself in regard to my business venture, which just expanded and which I could be succeeding at if I did what I needed to do. It's other people's lives that I'm seeing as a reflection of myself that clued me in here. I could do more and it's more brain clutter stopping me. However, things are starting to open up again.
The work I got in my last post is continuing for a few weeks, so I have made and will continue to make extra money from that. It's been a great thing because I've done most of the work at home. So cash flow has continued to improve.
My health has gone downhill, as has my cat's, but I feel it's all part of the clearing out of the old. Didn't expect SUCH a detox, but OK. And kitty is back on the upswing since I found a way to make sure she eats her medicine.
The roaches are still storming like Normandy, but they might be slacking off a tiny bit since I've hit them with boric acid a couple times now. My neighbors say it's getting better for them so I should see improvement soon. I hope so, I'm so tired of it. It's like nothing I've ever had to deal with in my life. I had ants once, but this is so much worse because roaches are disgusting. So I'll be glad when that part shifts, haha!
That's it for now. I'm going to think about doing some filing and some dishes today, and do a little work, and then I'm gonna get a pizza and wallow in front of the TV when I'm done with that.
So here's a few things I've let go of and some results, and we'll see how I do in the next week or so, before deciding to hang it up.
Emails: I deleted hundreds of old advertising emails that I had never read. And lots of expired links.
Feng shui: I had an appointment and ran around like crazy doing as many cures as possible as quickly as possible. Lots different from the last time, where it took weeks to get the most important one done, and the other most important one never got done.
Boyfriend: I came to the conclusion that I had to move on. Nothing was changing and I couldn't keep waiting for it to change.
Results: There have been many shifts since the feng shui. Things have gotten worse before getting better, and that's OK, that can be part of the process. But one thing that has continued to improve is cash flow. A week after making the appointment, I received $500 back from a business I'd put money into three years ago, that the government decided was a Ponzi scheme. They seized all the funds and personal assets of the founder, and evidently it was enough to pay everyone back. I had hoped for $100 and got the full $500, so I was pretty happy! I'd pretty much forgotten about it, which made it even better.
Anyway, I had a follow-up call and Deborah, the feng shui lady, said it all sounded really good to her, so that is encouraging. I was feeling like nothing was changing, and she said to me, "If feng shui worked in six weeks we'd all be millionaires." I had to laugh at that one, because I think I must have been expecting instant change! One thing that I know will reap big benefits is the breakup.
I am going through a lot of scary feelings about breaking up, but it's good because this is the brain clutter that kept me hanging on so long despite knowing it was time to let it go. So now hopefully I will face these fears and deal with them, so they won't get in my way again. I have done so much grieving over the end already, and yet there's still more. So I'm going with the residual wallowing this weekend, doing nothing much, and probably having pizza later.
I'm also seeing some other things about myself in regard to my business venture, which just expanded and which I could be succeeding at if I did what I needed to do. It's other people's lives that I'm seeing as a reflection of myself that clued me in here. I could do more and it's more brain clutter stopping me. However, things are starting to open up again.
The work I got in my last post is continuing for a few weeks, so I have made and will continue to make extra money from that. It's been a great thing because I've done most of the work at home. So cash flow has continued to improve.
My health has gone downhill, as has my cat's, but I feel it's all part of the clearing out of the old. Didn't expect SUCH a detox, but OK. And kitty is back on the upswing since I found a way to make sure she eats her medicine.
The roaches are still storming like Normandy, but they might be slacking off a tiny bit since I've hit them with boric acid a couple times now. My neighbors say it's getting better for them so I should see improvement soon. I hope so, I'm so tired of it. It's like nothing I've ever had to deal with in my life. I had ants once, but this is so much worse because roaches are disgusting. So I'll be glad when that part shifts, haha!
That's it for now. I'm going to think about doing some filing and some dishes today, and do a little work, and then I'm gonna get a pizza and wallow in front of the TV when I'm done with that.
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