Happy New Year!

Woohoo, this past week I decided 2012 is the year I'm going for it all! It's scary but with coaching and support I can take the actions I need to take, and see what happens! Even if I don't reach every goal, I'll be able to say I actually made the effort, which I haven't done up to now on the big things. So that will be a success in itself :)

On to my decluttering. I missed one last time, recycling 24 newspapers on Dec 2. This week I've done quite a bit of recycling: four business cards, nine notes, six envelopes and inserts, 36 papers, and a ton of old, wrinkled gift wrap and bows with a bent up box. I also took out ALL the recycling this week, in stages. And I cleared out the closet (whence came the old wrapping paper) so I could put away the A/C, hang coats, and make some room. I consolidated a bunch of books into one box and then used the other box for my ex-boyfriend's stuff that I had to give back to him, including a computer monitor that was stuffed into that same closet! That's been given back too.

Results: I participated in some amazing calls this past week involving energy work and a commitment to what I really want. It was inspiring and that's why I'm going for it this year. And I've already learned that when you fall off the wagon you just gotta get back on and not beat yourself up for it. I finally found a place of acceptance for where I am right now and used that today when I slipped back into old habits.

The coaching continues to go well, though I feel like I didn't do much this week. I really did get things done - just covered all the windows with plastic the other day, for example - but I feel like getting into gear for the stuff I need to do is going to be a challenge, almost like I've been skating all week, which I haven't.

I got to see a free movie on New Year's Eve before going to my friends' for dinner and New Year celebration. And when I got home my new free movie pass had arrived, just in time for 2012!

I hit a milestone with my ex last week, when he asked me if he should stop calling and I said yes. I didn't even think before I said it. Then I cried for the rest of the day. But that didn't last long, we spoke today about some things - that was my falling off the wagon. I didn't get on my own case but I did find myself very irritated with him and for a good part of the day afterward. Still, it is nice to feel truly loved. I have to trust that I'll do the right thing for myself and for him and however we end up will be for the best. Right now I still feel the need to move on and meet new men so that I can know if we are truly best-suited for one another. And also just to have fun with being a woman!

Whatever happens, I am focusing on my dreams and making goals based on them, and letting those goals guide my actions from here on out. It's time for me to do whatever it takes to succeed! Who's with me?